in my heart, there is no place i rather be

Thursday, June 29, 2006

ho ho ho.

life has been okay i guess. first week of school. quite a lot of slacking actually.. lotsa catching up with the peeps in school.

i seriously have nothing to blog about actually.

tomorrow's 'be yourself day' here in zhonghua. we'll all be wearing our own clothes. but sadly, i have chem prac after that. like what the black?!

there'll also be a JP performance. but i'm not sure of the details yet though. gotta wait for tess to update all of us. haha. cg after that. i love cg. i get soaked in the presence of god, which is a wonderful thing, if you know what i'm talking about. (:

you know sometimes when you think too much, or hope too much, and everything doesn't go your way, the disappointment is so much more than if you just don't really care about it.

i don't know why i'm feeling this way, but i shouldn't be. anyway, i lost the right to already.

Monday, June 26, 2006

DON'T EVER SAY ANYTHING LIKE YOU MEANT IT WHEN ACTUALLY YOU ARE JUST FAKING IT. BECAUSE THE HURT THAT YOU WILL CAUSE IS SO MUCH MORE THAN WHEN YOU ACTUALLY TELL THE TRUTH.

sometimes i really wish you know how much hurt you've caused me.

Friday, June 23, 2006

deleted the crap post. no more questions asked.

will be performing for the combined cell group meeting tomorrow. it'll be good. taking part in some parts of the drama as well. actually, it's quite fun to act. haha. at least, for now.

theresa said that twin and me made it too obvious. so we have to do it the more natural way. i'm learning babe. hahas.

i want to live a purpose-filled life, knowing that god is the constant help that i will receive. (: i love abba father.

once is enough to learn a lesson. i don't have to go through it twice to learn the same lesson. i remember hearing, its okay to make mistakes, as long as you learn from it. i will learn from my mistakes. and make sure that i won't fall into the same trap all over again.

because everyone is imperfect, don't expect me to be perfect.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

like the saying goes, pictures tell a thousand words. here, some pictures.

i really love all of them. because they love me for me. not somebody else that they want me to become. thank god of brothers and sisters in the kingdom of god.

:)

oh lord. guide me in your ways. teach me how to fulfil my life's assignment.

had prayer meeting. great presence of god.. i sensed it when the whole congregation prayed for Joyous Perfection. i felt it. and i couldn't stop tearing.

harsh brown? violent potato. hush brown? eat it silently.

HAHA.

feel so restless now. maybe its bed time. maybe its time to talk to god again.

goodbye.

ringing: before your love - kelly clarkson

you didn't love me. you loved the person you wanted me to be.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMMY! a.k.a banana nut crunch, mr anti-social-nerd. hope you will enjoy your special day alrights?! ((:

will be heading down to twin's house later to help out with the kids talentime item. hahas. i'm telling you, the 2 little boys look really cute when they pop la. so cute! i wanna video them! haha..

will be having prayer meeting later at YMCA. it'll be good. x))

Sunday, June 18, 2006

apparently, me and nicole had nothing better to do. and so, we came out with interesting nicknames. HAHA.

INTRODUCING:
nicole-MIKO
theresa-MIBO
vanessa-MITO
myself-MILO

right. i know some of you here will find it like stupid. but actually, there's some story behind it. but like what my twin has said, its private joke. LOL!!! im sorry. haha.

and i can't believe i told twin that i grew up in antartica with my parents and that we used to live in an igloo. you must be thinking why is constance being so mad. i think i'm just under too much stress. haha. and my dearest twin actually went on to say that i fish for fish in ice holes. LOL. i just love her to bits. she goes crazy with me! (:

hello. this is my twin, miko. ((: i can't wait to see her tomorrow.

good night world!

Saturday, June 17, 2006

hello world.

had a date with my beloved twin, tim and nick.

had subway AGAIN for lunch, walked around town and decided to catch a movie. and guess what we caught? silent hill. yes, constance did watched a horror movie. was begging them not to in the beginning. but, for everyone's sake, i gave in. but they were really nice la, at least they try to tell me and convince me that it won't be that much of a scare to me. hahaha. and i think that didn't really work though. and so we went in and were practically screaming and laughing throughout the movie. twin will know what i mean. ;]

i love my twin. (: a lot.

and recently, got really irritated by some pple. twin too. she knows what i mean. right nic? haha. some pple just don't know the limits. haha.

TWIN, THERESA, VAN. I MISS YOU ALL.

and to all 4e4-rians, please take the trouble to send me your personal photos, or else.... haha. fill in the blank youself. help to spread okays? thanks.

happy father's day to all fathers in the world. and of course to mine as well!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY GOD. ((:

Friday, June 16, 2006

i just love my 2 babes. met them up for dinner at subway after nic's bs. it was really fun. we all had like the most fun when we went prints. theresa said we can buy a book and write messages and like rotate the book around. but at the end of the day, we can't decide who's gonna keep the book. so nic said, "LET'S BURY THE BOOK." and me and theresa was like -.-". hahaha! time capsule! nic ah, you are full of nonsense. haha.

I LOVE THEM.

well, life goes on..

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

once bitten twice shy.

sometimes somethings can be done the second time, but sometimes somethings can't. no matter how hard you try..

yesterday, i was at my aunt's house. my little nephew, raenen was there. he is now learning how to stand. when he accidently fell and hit his head, i remember hearing my aunt say that it's all part of growing up. what is most important is that he stands up again.

i think what she's said is true.. many times, we do fall, although not literally.. but what is important is that we learn to stand up and learn from the mistakes that we made. if we don't, then that fall was a wasted one.

it's not easy.

there's prayer meeting tonight. guess i'll be going..

sorry for the emo-ness in here. just felt like blogging this. don't worry, i'm okay...

till then..

Friday, June 09, 2006

great is the lord and most worthy of praise
the city of our god the holy place
the joy of the whole world

great is the lord in whom we have the victory
he aids us against the enemy
we bow down on our knees

and lord we want to lift your name on high
and lord we want to thank you
for the works you've done in our lives
and lord we trust in your unfailing love
for you alone are god internal
throughout earth and heaven above

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cell group was great.. refreshing in a sense. i was really glad wen shan did the 'share-your-impact-emerge-had-on-you' session.. got real emo and cried when i was sharing.. emerge really leave a deep impression on me. talentime and all the sessions. THANK GOD FOR JOYOUS PERFECTION. i believe its all part of god's plan that i joined JP. and pastor's message on being a daniel, jabez and ester in our world today impacted me. in the world but not of the world.

sometimes its so hard to walk in god's plan and will. but i'm glad and thankful that i have w355 and close friends in church who will encourage me and pick me up when i fall. only they will understand all the pressure and how it feels to walk in god's purpose. thanks guys.. (:

bear with me. hah.. theresa, nic, van! miss you babes like mad! see you tomorrow! i can't wait to hug you all. :D

i think i use to have cool hair when i was very very young.

hahas! i know. i had pointy hair. quite cool huh? hah.

service will be great tomorrow. ya. i just know. (:

Sunday, June 04, 2006

WE WON! JOYOUS PERFECTION WON EMERGE TALENTIME 2006!

so exciting! i'm glad we pulled through!

joyous perfection, it takes a lot of effort and god's help to work togehter as a team and go so far together. we know each other's flaws and strengths. i really love you guys to bits with the love of god. and i'm really glad i was part of this whole thing.

special thanks to yong zhi, theresa and khye.

yong zhi, thanks for all the hard work that you have put in. it has all been worth it. thanks for the sweat and brain cells that you have given out when u choereograph the steps. thanks.

theresa, thanks for being a wonderful 'manager' of joyous perfection and also a great sister. thanks for being there when i needed strength the most. you have put in a lot of effort bonding the group and we can all see that. thanks for all your 'knocking into me some sense' session. i really really appreciate that.. love you babe.

khye, thanks for all your brain juices as well. and your square face that brings smiles to all our faces. although we always disturb you, you must know that we all really appreciate and love this brother we have. thanks again.

thanks also to all the supporters! NYP PEEPS! you guys so rock. ((: thanks for screaming your lungs out and suporting us like nobody's business. THANK YOU!

thanks to all talentime finalists. you guys have been great support! ((:

thanks to bro kenny and bro ryan who have given us support and corrections that indeed have brought out the best out of us. thank you very very much!

thanks w355 and all ex-cgm for the emotional support. wen shan! thanks for believing in me! (: love y'all.

last of all, thank god for everything! it is You who brought us so far.. THANKS DADDY! :D

PHEW. life has beeen hectic. sorry folks for the spiderwebs around this place.

i can't think straight now. lols. anyway, i'll update another time i guess.

((: peace out.